I´ve reached a point in my life where people´s bullshit means nothing to me! I´ve learned that you can´t trust anyone in this big, cold world. You can´t do anything about it, you can´t change it, you just have to accept it. Through everything, remember to think about who were there when you opened your eyes for the first time, and think about who will be there when you close them for the last. Friends come and go, that’s how it works. You might not understand it now but the time will come when you realize the real truth in everything and everyone. Everybody goes through tough times, everybody has those times they´ve just had enough, they start regretting and wishing things could be different. Nobody said that life would be easy but you know, God never gives a burden heavier than you can bear on.
Now these days’ people don’t have much tolerant, they get mad over small stuff. They let unnecessary things get in the way of important friendships, lovely relationships and family ties. We forget about the things that truly make us happy because we get so caught up in bad environment. People say: “forget about the past, it´s not important now”, but I can’t seem to agree on that because the past made us who we are this day today. The past has a lot to say about why you act the way you do today. People in your past are the people who know you the best. We forget words people used to tell us before, we only focus about what people tell us right now, but you know, it’s important to be observe about everything. Because if you continue forgetting about what people said to you before and only focus about what other people tell you today, then remember that those “other peoples words” will in the future be forgotten and they´ll leave, cuz you started to focus on the new peoples bullshit. We should be ashamed…
We get scared, but we hide it with attitude and lies. Nobody wants to be stepped down, nobody want to be seen lonely and lost. Everybody goes through tough times, some people gets a lot of support, other doesn´t. some people are strong enough to handle it by themselves, other needs many shoulders to cry on. Through everything, it’s important to know how to stand up for your self, to remember where you came from, who you came from. Never loose peoples respect by doing things you feel drawn or compelled to do. You will get peoples respect when you first start respecting yourself, people will accept you when you first accept yourself. Nobody got born the same way; we all look different, that’s because we are all beautiful on our own way.
The outside has a lot to say about you, but you know it’s the inside that counts. Your soul is the most important and special one, it´s unseen because people only can feel it. People can feel the love and the good that comes from your soul. But you know, people also feel the bad that comes from your soul. You need to keep your soul clean please, you´re one of Gods creations, we can´t forget how big that is. We cannot exploit it. No matter how high up you get, sometime during your life you will fall, make sure you have people who will be there to catch you.
When I walk on the streets, I see people who look happy; they smile constantly, like there’s nothing wrong in their life. So I start wondering… If these people really are happy. It´s strange how people can make you blind and unknown about all the pain they keep inside, and that just by smiling wide. You may think: damn they look happy, they have a great life… when the real truth is that they might feel so unhappy, the world maybe sucks for them and everything just goes wrong. Never think that someone have a better life than you, people have their own life that´s the way it just is. God has a plan for us all. We just have to face our own problems, deal with them, and take it step by step. Sometimes I wish I could se the pain in people instead of the fake smile they always show us, because I really badly want to know when someone doesn’t feel well, so that I can give them a big hug and try to support them, tell them that everything’s going to be ok.
People have started to abuse the word LOVE. People are getting more and more fake and heartless. Love is a truly big and strong word with a meaning and showing that your heart feels for someone. It can feel love and joy and it can feel pain. When you love someone you feel it in your heart not in your mind. Love used to be so true and fantastic in a fantasy way, love could make you feel like you´re flying in the skies. Love could make you do anything and I am not only talking about love between a girl and a boy, I’m also talking about love for a friend, love for a brother or a sister, love for your parents. You need to be sure if you really love somebody because as long as you continue abusing the word you wont do anything else then end up alone and hurt.
Bad environment brings bad influence on you. I´ve noticed that people are not as smart as they claim to be. You think you know what you are doing, maybe so but everybody makes mistakes they´ll regret, why? Well, among others the society and the bad environment around us affecting us. People will always have a way to affect us. Our brain doesn’t react very fast in the decisions we make at some points; it doesn’t get in to us right away. I never thought so but I´ve seen it with my own eyes that even the most flawless person can loose him/her self and become the opposite of what they were, they change for a moment. Only true friends would stand up and do anything to get you back, the real you. It depends on if you have a true friend who will always be there for you, and I know many people are so dumb and think they know what a best friend is when they actually don’t have a clue. You need to be very observed on who you can and cannot count on.
Family comes first. No matter what, in every kind of situation, family comes first. You share blood with them, nobody knows you the way they do. You think you can live by yourself and don’t need family but I must say you are very wrong there. Even if you think you are alone in this world, your family will always be watching you even if it doesn’t seem so. Its easy to choose the easy way, to get away easily, but what when you reach the hard way, there are no other way but that one, what are you going to do? Do you think friends will be there in front of you and show you the way? No. Because people have their own life and their own problems, they put their family before you, not everybody does it but everybody who doesn’t are very lonely and lost individuals in this world. They are not safe because only family can make you feel safe and truly loved. Only family can help you! Friends are easy to find, you find them and loose them, its how it works, its nothing permanent, a best friend you have known for a very long time is the one you can hold on to, but read this properly: A best friend never force you to do anything, a best friend is always by your side and always want the best for you. A best friend is family to, but as I said, a true friend, not only someone you think you can count on. So please be aware of what you decide to do, think before you act! You wouldn’t have come this far in life without your family. They are not only family, they are your most precious treasure.
Everybody has lost someone really special in his or her life. This is the part I know the best. We all have a family member or a friend who went to the other side. It’s the hardest thing to handle with in life, losing someone who used to mean so much to you, someone who maybe meant the world to you. You always used to think that you would die if you lost someone you love. When you reach that point you will realize that you are so much stronger than you think. Things will change, it doesn’t usually get better, but you become a survivor, angels will help you through life no matter how tough it gets. People always says it gets better with time, but I would not say so… the more you are without the person you lost, the more you miss him/her and the more grows the pain you feel wishing you could see them again. It´s like when you love someone, everyday you love that person more and more. It’s the same when it comes to missing someone; everyday you miss that person more and more. You get used to live without them but sometimes there are moments when you just want to jump out of a bridge because you no longer can stand the thought of him/her never coming back to you again. It’s so hard to handle a situation like this. The sad thing is that there are people whom life became ruined because of losing someone near… Not everybody can handle it in a good way.
Someone starts smoking, drinking and taking drugs or even start cutting themselves because they don’t (or think they don’t) have anybody who is there for them, maybe its just that person who left them that could keep them away from all those horrible things this world contains. That is always the easy/hardest way out. They think they deserve the pain, put NO nobody deserves that pain, its important to realize that people actually care. Its important to think in a good way and stay strong, if not for your self then do it for the ones you´ve lost, they would not be proud if you choose to go the wrong direction in this kind of situation. No matter how hard it gets you always have to remember to stay good in this life. Don’t do bad things that could ruin you and your life. Show your angels what they really raised up and let them be proud of you.
Karma is a bitch
Ok this is like the perfect time and opportunity to write about karma. Through these two and a half years in college I´ve realized a lot and I have seen much that I wasn’t familiar with before. I´ve also learned a lot, both from my own experience but also from others. You know when bad things happen to you and you´re like “oh why me? I don’t deserve it. I haven’t done anything wrong.” The thing is, yes you have. You don’t think about it, I mean, it actually depends from one person to another. To some people (like me) karma hits right away, it doesn’t wait for to long, it just hits like BOM, then you´re done. When it comes to others, karma goes on for a while, and they start to forget about it, it doesn’t matter so much to them anymore. They continue doing wrong and continue to forget.
Does any of this appeal to you? Do you recognize yourself?
Anyway continuing… Then, when you least expect, BOM there it comes, crossing your soul, your life, your world. That’s the moment you think like, holy shit it cannot be happening. You didn’t believe it would happen, but it did. Let me tell you something. The one who came up with the saying: “what goes around, comes around” is one smart and unique individual. That saying could not be any truer. So don’t you ever think that you will get away that easily, oh no, it WILL hit you, I guarantee you that. I can´t tell when, but I can tell that it will, eventually, that is why they say, karma is a bitch, because it knows it´s game, there´s no point on trying to win over it because you will lose. So stay true to yourself in order to stay true to others. Don’t do things you know is wrong, just to do them. Think twice, and think faster than you act. Do good because, good karma exists to, and it comes around to, eventually.
It felt good writing about things that use to cross my mind everyday. I know the paragraphs comes in random sequences but I just wrote down every word that came naturally in my mind, through my body and out my fingertips to the keyboard. This is a text I wrote for about 2 and a half years ago, when I was 16. (Except for the “karma” paragraph, which I wrote recently) I will continue writing on this text about different things coming along in the future, it is going to be fun reading the whole text in the future when I am at my 40´s or something haha. So it is nothing more than just my opinions and thoughts through experiences in life.
Written by: – Anonymous
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